So lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about my parenting style as Nora is growing up so quickly in front of my eyes. I have had some big decisions to make recently as well that can be stressful for even the most experienced parent....like which pediatrician to choose, to continue doing physical therapy or not, how to curb Nora's separation anxiety and the list goes on... My title is not really saying that Parenting is simple because it is far from that!
My title is saying that...parenting simply does take over your whole life!! When having a recent discussion with Nick about Nora's new pediatrician, he pointed out to me how particularly picky I really am. After feeling unsure if I made the right decision, he asked me..."would anyone ever be good enough for you?" I paused for a moment and answered, "well maybe not!" As you can probably already tell by my endless amounts of pictures and daily posts about my precious angel, I really do hold my daughter on a pedistool to say the least. She IS my entire life....she is what makes my world go around, she is what makes me excited to get up every morning, she is the little one that can turn me into "mama bear" in a quick second!
I don't think I need to apologize for being "too picky" when it comes to what is best for my baby girl. This being said however, I am very aware that she is not the only person here on god's great Earth so I will have to learn to share her and let her learn through self discovery. I want to be able to shelter her but also allow her to experience all there is in this amazing life.
As I lay in bed each night, I always tend to reflect upon the day and think of what tomorrow holds. Lately I have found myself thinking of all that I want to instill in Nora as she grows and how I can start doing it now. Here is what I have came up with so far...
I want her to have manners and be well behaved
I want her to learn to share and help others
I want her to be creative and express her silly personality
I want her to be social and know how to communicate well
I want her to be able to experience life through trips, events and activities
I want her to love to read
I want her to love animals
And most of all, I want her to love ME!
I am pretty sure that even at the young age of 10 months, Nora already has her own way of showing me she loves me! We have been struggling a bit lately with Nora insisting on "mum mum" to be by her side constantly. Including at bedtime, which now has turned into quite the event to get her settled in her crib, without being snuggled to mommy. I know though, that this stage too will pass in time, so until then, I will view this as Nora's precious way of thanking me for all that I do for her each day.
As I am reading this aloud (to check for errors for my brother, lol), I can already feel myself swelling up with pride and love for my sweet baby girl. Although I am not one to express my religious beliefs, she truly is the greatest gift that god has ever given me and it is now my lifelong responsibility to care for this beautiful, happy, energetic, and helpless child.
Some pictures of the day that my whole life changed forever :))
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